Introductory Talk- Recollection Talk
Ad quid venisti? These were the words written on the blackboard that stood before our classroom in the Novitiate. We arrived a week before we entered into Novitiate, all of us had looked at the board and saw these words but we did not care to find out why those words were written on the blackboard and what they meant.
A week passed by, and we completed our retreat. We celebrated our entry into Novitiate solemnly. However, the blackboard stood there still right in front of our classroom with the words, Ad quid venisti?
The first day of the novitiate having vested ourselves with this habit, we entered the classroom with so much eagerness to listen to what our Novice Master had to say. As he entered the classroom, he asked that the blackboard that stood outside be brought inside.
As one of the novices, prompt he thought he was, he took the duster to quickly erase the words lying on the blackboard for more than a week. The Novice Master stopped him and asked every novice to read these words. As all completed the reading, the most obvious question, the Novice Master posed was, “What do these words mean?” As none of us were able to answer, he pulled us up with strong words for lacking intellectual curiosity and eagerness to learn.
I am sure some of you know the meaning and context of the usage of these words – Ad quid venisti? It means, “Why have you come here?” “Why are you here?” “What is the purpose why you are here?”
Our Novice Master asked each one of us, on the first day of the Novitiate, “Ad quid venisti – Why are you here?” He then went on for a week challenging us to answer this question. Why did we join the friars? Why did we receive this habit? Why do we want to continue this way of life?
Confronting these questions then was not easy! Why? Confronting these questions now is not easy either! These questions are timeless. We should be challenging ourselves with this question “Why are you here?’’ all the time!
That you have been a priest for several years now, that you have been a religious for several years, that you are in a temporary profession now, that you are going to renew your vows, now, I ask you this question standing in the presence of God, receiving the courage from Him, “Fathers and Brother, why are you here? Why do you want to continue this way of life? why do you want to renew your vows?”
If you know the “why” you will find the “how”. So, the question is “Ad quid Venisti? Why are you here?” Nietzsche says, “He who has a why to live for can bear almost any how.”
From your actual lived experience as a CMI Priest these many years and a CMI Brother in Formation, have you found the “Why” you are a CMI?
It sounds very simplistic to say that I am here because God has called me. This will be an inadequate way of discerning why I am here. The question is why has God called me? Why me, Lord?
I was much inspired by the Retreat Preacher who preached our Province Retreat this year. In his opening and the subsequent talks, he repeatedly reminded us, that we are the SIGN of GOD. In our attempt to answer the question – why are we here? – I would like to propose for your consideration this answer: Fathers and Brothers, you are here to be the Sign of God. Nothing else matters!
2 Corinthians 5:20: We’re Christ’s representatives.
Exodus 7:1: So, the LORD said to Moses: “See, I have made you as God to Pharaoh
Colossians 3:17: And whatever you do or say, do it as a representative of the Lord Jesus…
Matthew 5:16 “In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.”
By our very Call to be Religious, by our reception of the Sacrament of Ordination – we are meant to be the Sign of God. To be the sign of God means we remind the people of their God. I am sure, you have had an experience, not one but many, that when you stand with your cassock on, there is someone or the other who comes to you seeking your blessing or prayer. Why, because you remind the people of their God.
As you stand here at the Altar and offer the Eucharist, People see you not as so and so standing there, they see you – they see their God – as a priest offering the Eucharist, you are in persona Christi! This is what being a Sign of God means. The Vowed life with Poverty, Chastity, and Obedience, you stand as a sign of God – you remind the people of their God.
Are you the SIGN OF GOD? Do you represent God in your words and deeds? In how you go about living your life with one another in the community and outside – do you shine as a sign of God? In how you live your life of obedience, poverty, and chastity, do you stand as a sign of God?
To be the Sign of God – Do you know your God? An experiential knowledge that is not just sustained but is growing every day!
To be the Sign of God – Do you relate with your God? A dynamic relationship that is not stuck in an infantile stage but has matured and is maturing as you age.
To be the Sign of God means that the distance between you and your God is not much! You are nearer to your God. This is what you need to examine today – what is the distance between you and your God?
Your fundamental job as religious and CMIs is to represent God. You may hold various professions and responsibilities, but the most fundamental profession is to be the Sign of God, everything else is only secondary to it or every responsibility is a way of being the sign of God in this world.
Just to use a secular term – Job Satisfaction – I wish to ask you – in this job of being the Sign of God, what is your job satisfaction? The meaning of job satisfaction here is the level of contentment you feel with your religious life. It means that you wake up every day with renewed vigor and energy to live the day to the full. It means you are doing your best, you are fulfilling the expectations your job has on you, you are an achiever. It means you know you are vulnerable, but you give yourself another chance to be better every day. Job satisfaction implies a high degree of motivation that leads you forward in your life.
Imagine, you take up responsibility as a Principal of a School which is in ruins, and nothing has been going well for so long. You do everything possible to make that school work and ensure that the school becomes one of the best in the vicinity. You do it because you are good at your job and the job satisfaction you draw from it is immense.
Now come to this fundamental job you have, which is, to represent God. How good are you at this job? What is the level of your job satisfaction in this job of representing God? On a scale one to 10, how do you rate your job satisfaction of representing God?
Once Francis of Assisi was moving through the woods. One farmer saw this poor man Francis but could not recognize him. So, the farmer went and asked Francis, “Are you Francis from the town Assisi?” Francis said, “Yes, I am. I am Francis from Assisi.” The farmer replied, “ Well then, Francis, be as good as people think you are.” The farmer continued, “Let there be nothing different in you from what people think you are.” These words addressed to St. Francis, are addressed to each one of us. People think that we are holy, we are prayerful, we sacrifice so much, we are dependent on God for everything. People think that we are the Sign of God.
Fathers and Brothers, let there be nothing different in you than that you are the Sign of God.
This Mission of being the Sign of God or Representing God is dependent upon the quality of your Religious life.
A life of prayer is what makes you the Sign of God: Prayer life is not just about the ritual fulfillment of the liturgical celebrations of praying the office of the hours, Eucharist, Rosary, Lectio Divina, and other devotional practices. It is your ‘personal involvement and active participation’ in the moments of prayer that matters the most.
Consecrated life, more than ever today, is called to become a fire that ignites other fires and “lights up the heart” (Benedict XVI). It is called to fervor, the intensity of prayer, evangelical radicalness, and service in mission proper to the missionary and the disciple.
Right now, you are here for a spiritual exercise, examine your state of mind, participation, and involvement – can you call it a spiritual exercise? Or does your ‘kind’ of participation only affirm your ‘obligatory fulfillment’ with no room for personal involvement?
The quality of Prayer life as present in seminaries and convents calls for a greater renewal but unfortunately, it remains the least of concern. I am sorry, that I am generalizing this issue. If this is not so, among you, you are certainly better placed, and your life of prayer certainly makes you the sign of God. Yes, I am talking in general!
Imagine, a seminary, where those who reside there wake up every morning at. 5.15 and come to chapel at 5.40 and pray the Lauds with half-sleepiness lacking attention and then spend another 20 to 30 minutes in Meditation with frequent dossing-off and go to partake in the Eucharist without any prior preparation and devoid of personal involvement. Such a life goes on and on every day! What then is the quality of Prayer life? This is just about what happens in the morning. There are other moments of prayer during the day.
The much-needed “Spiritual Renewal” is possible not through just one act of retreat, recollection of recital of formula but through daily ongoing conversion through a sincere prayer life. This way, we become the sign of God, or else, we condemn ourselves to signs that betray God.
An important aspect of prayer life is how mature we are in our prayer life. We cannot be satisfied with what we do daily ritually. Yes they are important. They are non-negotiable. The Lauds and Vespers are the hinges on which our religious life lie. That we have come a long way in our religious and priestly life, the question is also about how long we have come in our prayer life.
Wouldn’t be it infantile that we do the same thing now that we did in Aspirancy, Novitiate? Has our prayer life matured, our conversation with the Lord matured, our meditation matured, our rosary matured, our devotional practices matured or are they all the same always.
In essence, they do not change. They remain of the same value no matter how we grow physically, psychologically, and socially. But our approach towards them should change, our attitude towards them should change and how we make use of them should change for our spiritual growth and how we spend time using all of those should change.
Prayer life is the priority of all priorities. The Importance of prayer life in a religious life cannot substituted with anything else. St. Francis wrote this to St. Anthony of Padua who sought permission to theology to the brothers: “I am pleased that you teach sacred theology to the brothers, provided that…you do not extinguish the spirit of prayer and devotion during study of this kind.”
Crisis in Religious life is not just about lack of vocation. It is about the crisis of prayer in religious life, that is the crisis we should be addressing. It is about the religious failing to be a sign of God in this world. It is about the religious failing to remind the people of their God.
Moses went up the mountain to meet the Lord. Moses on the mountain has a conversation with God. Moses spends time with God. (Ex 19:3). The people of God were waiting for Moses to return. Moses returns to the people full of God’s Words. Moses then leads the people to meet God (Ex. 19:17).
You are here, called by the Lord, on the mountaintop, to converse with God. These days of prayer and reflection are set apart for you to converse with God. Moses carried the Word of God as he went down from the mountain, after this recollection or days of prayer, what do you wish to carry from here – having spoken to the Lord? Ask yourself, What do you want to do today, what do you want to do these days?
The time Moses spent on the mountaintop was not a daily ritual he fulfilled without any personal involvement. Neither was it an obligation, he fulfilled to be legally and morally right before the others. On the other hand, it was a time of an encounter, a heartfelt encounter, and an active and dynamic experience.
If this is what it is for Moses, what is it for you?
Are you here because it is a monthly ritual, an obligation?
Are you here because you want to be here, you desire an experience with God, or you wish to converse with God?
Be honest with yourself and decide for yourself if you wish to begin this spiritual exploration today.
For some of you, it is a monthly recollection and for others is a time of preparation for the renewal of Vows. Both, the time of recollection and renewal call for beginning a new – in the words of St. Francis, “For until now, we have done nothing, let us begin anew’.
Recollection and Renewal of Vows provide us with the opportunity to begin again our commitment to the Lord. Are you ready to begin again? If so, show it in your actions, especially in how you wish to spend these days of prayer.